Leaping Over the Edge

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Come to the edge.
We might fall.
Come to the edge.
It’s too high!
COME TO THE EDGE!
And they came,
and he pushed,
And they flew.
-Christopher Logue

I quit my job this week. I’ve been planning to resign for over three months now, but had not felt inspired to do it until this past Monday. It’s been a journey, to say the least. But after fasting and praying this past weekend, I went to work on Monday and the answer was made clear. After my morning meeting, I felt prompted to read my scriptures where I had left off, so I found a private place to study. The Lord confirmed my morning prompting in Ether 12:7. I felt Him telling me, “wherefore, the Lord brought a remnant of the seed of [Joanna] out of the land of [Reset], that he might be merciful unto the seed of [Joanna] that they should perish not.”

I’m leading you out. Don’t be afraid to follow me.

So I drafted my resignation letter and quit my job. There are a lot of logical reasons I should be worried and sad, but instead I feel free. A burden is lifted. I feel hope. I feel whole. I feel my world opening up and opportunity ahead of me. I feel joy.

This leap over the edge is one that seems to go against reason, but it’s because we don’t see as He sees and don’t know what He knows. Am I crazy to quit a job before I have another one lined up? Everything wants to scream a big fat YES, YOU STUPID COW! But, revelation tells me, do it now, follow me, trust in me. This is right.

And maybe just saying that seems crazy to some. But, I know revelation is real like I know that I breathe. I know I have a Father in heaven who loves me, hears my prayers and is guiding my life. He has led me step by step on this most recent journey. He is holding my hand and shining a light just ahead of each footstep to show me the way. I am walking a journey of prayer, uncertainty, and seeking punctuated by moments of absolute clarity in which I understand the Lord’s will and make a choice I know is right. The peaceful confirmation that follows is one of the most beautiful feelings in the world.

Tomorrow is my last day at what I thought would be my dream job. Now, I am running full speed and trampolining over the edge. I can feel the wind below me, lifting me. There is tremendous learning behind me and a horizon of opportunity and growth ahead. I feel like laughing. The Lord will give me wings to fly.

I’m ready.